A Moment Of Meditation

A Moment Of Meditation

And then,

All of a sudden,

You realize the beautiful innocence

You've been once,

But no longer,

The purity of the infant you were,

With all the blank spaces and the hopeful aspirations,

Full of life and full of love,

Coming through what we call this life ..

Confused in space and time, 

Like if you're just watching another child,

Questioning about how real you are, 

And trying to give some sense to this lapse of time in your life,

Between what you remember you were and the thing you've become,

And how closely to you both are,

And you remember that you're grown now,

And everything has grown too;

The heaviness of your life, 

Carefulness of the your mind,

And even everything around.

And you ask yourself,

How similar am i, 

To what i think i am?

Painting: Six persimmons by Mu Qi

Proficiency

Proficiency,
I was told to get you 
No matter how.
I toiled for you,
Days and nights, 
So you could come.

Proficiency, 
I was thirsty for you, 
So i drunk more than i should, 
I ate more than i could,
And then vomited it all ..

Proficiency, 
I was wrong,
I thought you were strong, 
But no,
It's all about me getting a form,
Without those dumb songs.
Me and myself making a storm,
That's how you should come ..

Proficiency,
I aimed for you,
They told me that's what i have to do,
So i played the chorus more than i should, 
And then all was down again ..

Proficiency, 
All the things were weird,
Until it all became clear,
It's not about fears,
It's about getting the right fit, 
In right time, 
Before it swirls ..

By: Jasmin Sma